after the successfully aras startup from the label owners andre galluzzi and dana ruh we are now presenting a hot follow-up from our friend, well known hessian johannes heil. the a side consciousness is a massive 12 minute dancefloor killer starting with a nice synth loop and some heavy kicks. after nearly a half the track turns from a warm hypnotic break into a real peaktime monster. b side track pure starts a little bit deeper with sounds that let us yearn for the sun. a very nice package for the summer.

after their first hello on the 6 years hive compilation adriatique is back on hive audio with a full ep. the swiss- based duo recently released some remarkable pieces of music in the last months with amzing feedbacks and chart-postitions. the aint nobody ep shows a few typical adriatique sounds but has a darker touch. the original a-side is filled with some old school housebeats paired with heavy synth work, deep vocals & a rolling bassline which makes this track work for every time of the night or morning. atapys remix of aint nobody goes into the same direction but delivers his very own interpretation. he put on the atapy stamp through his characteristic synthmelodies. then we have another original track from adriatique. mind games is a heavy dance floor track with lots of content. pretty much electronic with melodies and spoken vocals which really put mind games on the map. overall all tracks are made for the club and will achieve their goal. dancing not only with the body but also with the soul.

after a superb 2011 for crosstown rebels, they are now proud to present their next album, amirali >in time<. tipped as a one to watch for 2012 (mixmag), iranian/canadian producer amiralis debut album is truly exceptional, a subtle combination of house, techno, funk, electronica and downbeat with indie sensibilities. the album is reminiscent of depeche mode, radiohead, underworld and art department all through a modern electronic paradigm. amirali features on vocals on the album and is already being widely, regarded as one of the most accomplished debut albums of recent years. his recent single beautiful world (featuring remixes from deniz kurtel, daniel bortz & hrdvsion) was met with rapturous appeal gaining an ever-increasing legion of fans. in time is a fantastic body of work, from the hit singles my way, beautiful world and just an illusion to the down tempo painting on a canvas and last words, the album is full of beautiful sonic vignettes. other highlights include the broken beat whisper, the infectious hear me and the mammoth sounds of my life. just an illusion will be released shortly after the album featuring mk, franck roger and appleblim remixes. amirali has succeeding in producing a mesmeric and consummate body of work. the album has already been playlisted on npr and looking like another big album release for crosstown rebels.

ben sun kicks off the ep with some glorious grass roots house vibes. after releases on wolf music and under the shade melbournes francis inferno orchestra s make their debut for vr with classy, lo-slung but urgent take on deep house. legendary australian dj hmc joins in with some p-funk flavoured starr trax and last tyson ballard with some warm, spacious sunday-vibe piece of house music that is my house . touched by the magic that is linkwood for the mixdown, it s an infectious piece that draws a fitting end to a superb ep. another great release on this cool label.

after last years success of >phased<, j alexander is back on his friends electric imprint with >vanguard<. on the flip sasha carassi keeps up the dancefloor pressure in fine style.

lowkey & kardinal are undoubtedly the most excited french techno duo at the moment. after several success on afulab, lowkey & kardinal return with a massive track called >suspicious mind< on our own label. in guest the rising of french techno, traumer (already released on 1605 / skryptöm / toolroom and many more ...) with a fat and emotional remix !

number eleven on uncanny valley focuses on the soundscapes of cvbox who debuted on the fourth compilation, uncanny valley 4, in 2011. releasing his first solo record, hes finally able to express his very specific idea of sound somewhere in between meditative ambient and compelling techno on the analog amputations ep. past the eclipse is shaped by echoing choirs at first and mutates then into a serious detroit funk killer for self forgotten techno dancefloors. counterflow starts to roll with menacing drones but quickly surprises with its optimistic atmosphere and an irresistibly catchy synth flute. the flipside starts off forcefully with the oldschool techno stomper droid swift 836. after that orience floats in a sea of pads without losing the funk of the cvboxes. the cover artwork was created by visual artist paul barsch from dresden.

after a long silence iron curtis returns with his magic. thoughts on is the producer’s debut single for 4lux. proper house and disco tracks! the original mix of thoughts on is a banging deep house joint with haunting melodies and cut up vocals. the 2012 version provides for a more jumping bassline and hard hitting straight forward beats. iron curtis goes mental on oh come on with his cut up and vibe-heavy jazz samples and heavy pounding 808 beats. relentless! on interlude in the park the lights are dimmed and the tempo drops. a slow disco burner for those who love slow jams.

after his last single asset 001 and releasing his distance track on dogmatik records, stojche returns with the second release on his own solo tangible assets imprint delivering another four cuts, whereby we witness his consistency in putting out a must-have quality works. the 1st track on the a side is called you & me. podium techno tune where the 909 drums and the fat baseline interact perfectly with musical theme. stojche starts off with the pad lines, building them up with various chords, synth swabs and dubby layers that strike in perfect timing. this one is real immersive moody groover. a2 -mechanism has an electric piano aspect as key texture that jams along the track, and later the amazing string arrangement creates a lot of space for the drum sequence to bring the mood to another level. this tune could do a lot of damage on the dancefloor if dropped in a right time. b1- revolt kicks off with a storming groove right from the start. uncompromising drums with the acidic synth keys that rumble in 4 on the floor beat that showcase chicago house influences from the past. b2 - podrum is the closing track of this single that carries a real strong emotion and deepness. classic detroit influenced after hour tune approached in style. the warmth stretches across the entire soundscape, where we witness stojches skills to create an essential spiritual deep house number. definitely stojche has succeeded in delivering four different quality works to one beauty of a record!!! asset002 will be available only in tangible (physical) format

after his remix for leghaus single >herborn<, mike wall release his first single on flicker rhythm music. after >total black< on berlins frucht label now he release the second match of the color collection. >total red<is a cynically, metallic thick groove that gets dark and powerfull straight to the floor. incl. remixes from octave (silent steps, nachtstrom schallplatten) & james unk (less is more, frucht).

thieveland jams … thug records next 12 inch presents a new 4 track e.p from one of the undergrounds commanding lieutenants, jeff samuel. named after his hometown of cleveland ohio, the thieveland jams e.p hits hard with 4 hammer minimal house jackers. punchy bass, looped up percussion and jazzy chords sit tightly against the back drop of jeffs signature soundscapes. a seminal house & techno artist, jeff samuel has a back catalog of street ready bombs on some of the most respected labels worldwide including spectral sound, logistics, trapez, poker flat and dan bells legendary 7th city. not much else needs to be said really … hope you dig the tunes as much as we do!

holgi star & pierre deutschmann teamed up again.after their huge debut my way or highway ep on stylerockets and the follow up slutty money ep on k:lender, its now time for the third strike: you torn ep.a 3 track must have if you are all into tech-house & techno.support: butch,slam,paco osuna,paride saraceni,fuzzybox, seth toxler

after the warmly received part one of golden age thinking it is now time for part 2. this one is all about a banging club track on the a side theme a relentless pounding groove and 2 deeper cuts the chugging flatlining and the tranquil these feelings on the flip. we dont believe too much in describing them to you further than this but we hope you will agree they are quite special.

after the smooth sonic assault of invisible sunrise, seahawks dive deep and return with the immersive aquatic opus that is tender abyssin the tradition of oceanic soundscapes by the likes of dolphins into the future and jurgen muller, seahawks have created a deep listening experience that takes you way down beyond the mariana trench. part one reveals a world of storms, where wild encounters and unexplained phenomena precipitate aquatic hallucinations. part two illuminates an underwater world of wonder, a sensory cornucopia, where soft vistas unfurl as the mind relaxes in an ocean of bliss. take a deep breath and enter the tender abyss. as always with seahawks releases the album is beautifully packaged and extremely limited.

for some time now the bar25 label has wanted to put out a release with all of our swiss musician friends – the many folks who came to the swiss weekends at the bar and generally made a habit of visiting us in berlin. the bar always had a deep swiss connection, manifested not least in the legendary swiss cabin, home away from home to larger groups of visiting friends and monday evening after-hour hotspot. alpenglühen – feines aus der schweiz (alp glow – swiss bliss) is a swanky double vinyl of high-quality production art made in switzerland. on vinyl 1, animal trainer from hive audio share a side with andri, the zurich native. techno gladiator wandler and live artist canson play the other side, while vinyl 2 lets two matadors from the new zurich club friedas büxe – don ramon and san marco – steer for a while. and the two music geniuses from galoppierende zuversicht are also here, fittingly, using sounds recorded live at friedas büxe for their track. the sampler concludes with the exceptionally talented mastra, who contributed a special song to this swiss musical collage. the digital release also comes with a bonus live track by sublime stage band rizzoknor. even the cover was designed in switzerland, during a bar25 night at the legendary cabaret in zurich. were all excited about this release since its a special one for the 25 label. marked both by good old times and new horizons, this record is a musical compilation representing the very special kind of artist that will always be welcome in wild berlin!

massive groove packed with swollen plump chords and sexy sighs hammered together with percussion like a machine gun, firing off the beats in quick succession. repeat after me – this is good!

philpot finally presents reboot joy confession’,s album debut! after two fantastic 12inches for us in the last two years we decided it was time to collect all these fine tracks they presented to us, but weren t really 12inch single material.now, beautifully skit-connected, it all makes for one outstanding album, flawlessly fusing boombap, latin, jazz, psychedelica and raw house aesthetics and so much more!so, take some time out, make yourselves comfortable and let them put a spell on you!

after two splendid releases of industrial house for amsterdams rush hour, the elusive b.d.i. graces running back with his presence. trading the factory for the holy see, he delivers a triptych that goes across countries, continents, time and space. paper tears is some serious vatican house and the deepest track that the paradise loft never played. coveted with the devoutness that is the tribal tears dub and a new wave whip subtitled same victories, same mistakes, there is a prayer here for every matter. comes in limited super sleeves and unlimited niceness.

after a blistering debut on hot creations with the irrepressible >games<, released in november last year, infinity ink are back with >infinity< on crosstown rebels. a momentous slice of cosmic garage that is about to transform your summer forever!

in the second cut of the vinyl we will find uner remix, who after having reaped a great success with his palua ep released on cadenza, reaches rawseries to offer an outstanding job on it that shows its most personal side and gives to the original cut an electronic and technoid flavour. following the outstanding entry into the electronic scene, rawseries presents his second release, leix & hitch - low cutz ep . a solid and complete work involved the consecration of this new series of novotek on vinyl, establishing himself as a large shelter for lovers of house in all its forms and states.

sirko mueller, one half of the tokomak label headquarter, is back on mojuba sublabel wandering for some new adventures! after his last ep called reexplored and quite some releases for pure plastic sublabel rewired, styrax and milnor modern he delivers us four new tracks from his vault, showcasing his love for deep techno on the a-side and heavy reggae – dub influenced jams on the b-side. watch for more to come from mr. mueller, because he has just started!

in his biography, arjuna schiks is described as a producer with an ability to bring the human out of the machine, unleashing our emotions. after listening to doha , we were affected in the same way. simply put, his music makes us feel good. melodic accents and danceable rhythms blend in purposeful unison, and it is with the doha ep that arjuna will join wir. he has appeared on gem records, manual music, traum, and trapez, with original eps, and has recently graced a number of labels with remixes, leaving his signature on each ep. his production output is impressive, and like most greats, his sound continues to grow and develop with each studio session. arjuna resides in amsterdam, where he has developed a distinct and solid sound, and a loyal fan base. he performs live close to every weekend all over holland. we invited arjuna to come and perform as the special guest at our treibstoff 14.5 year anniversary party for his first ever performance on german soil. his set was received with smiling faces and hands in the air, coming from the brimming dance floor of colognes gewölbe, a warm welcome to say the least. we had the pleasure of spending some time together after the event, and his character is just like his music. he is a cheerful and passionate person with a bright sense of humor and we are elated to welcome him to wir. keep your ears open, for there is more to come..

a couple of months after the release of sweet nothings, dapayk & padberg are once again treating the vinyl-heads amongst us to a 12? consisting of a sunny selection of the albums core material, just in time for spring. kicking off the a-side, berlin summer nights is nothing short of an anthem: classic rave sounds of epic proportions glide through an arrangement of bouncy beats, crisp percussive work and hopeful vocals until a powerful breakdown delivers the hands-in-the-air moment. this year, summer has come early. next up, the sun came up bedazzles with a pumping beat and robotic vocals, while a progressive synth lead helps along the track’s love lyrics, turning this into a truly stunning musical moment, which already proved its power at sweet nothings’ heart. on the flip, dapayk & padberg present the albums opener, the trippy too lazy. here, were dealing with a rather brooding afterhours number that is equal parts paranoid and mesmerising as a wonky bass vibrates under dubbed out pads, eerie synths and vocal whispers. the perfect antidote to the cheery a-side!

heres the final 2nd part of sascha dives restless nights album remixes. after frank roger and alix alvarez appeared with their own versions of sascha dives music on the first part of this remix series in 2011, the 2nd part will be acclaimed in equal measure. on side a1 chicago house legend halo feat. blakkat transform sascha dives original summer madness into a straight club track with a groove one just can not resist. on b1 willi graff and tuccilio deliver their interpretation of underground railroad - yet another dance floor bomb! a true shaker. were loving it!fred p. again keeps it dark with his interpretation of get out of the ghetto blues.deep,deeper,the deepest. check it out. hips dont lie!

after broom has remixed tracks by gennaro le fosse and johannes heil for cocoon recordings, it was now unquestionably time for a musical exclamation mark under his own name. and so, the rave mix of sq18 is setting a hedonistic imperative for the club year 2012 right from the beginning, quite naturally interspersing a mentasm rave signal after about three minutes within its driving detroit dub techno, but never conveys the sense of nostalgic mustiness

almost four years after his last dial record single >miles< lawrence is back with another tribute to the sun. in the meantime he was still busy with a couple of releases for mule musiq, laid, smallville and dj kozes pampa imprint. his first mix cd >timeless< has been recorded lately for cocoon recordings. coming home to his own imprint prooves once more how modern house music should sound like: deep, moving and always surprising. >etoile du midi already travelled around the globe including tokyo, london, berlin and hamburg to finally being cut on vinyl after bringing the magic to all those lovely clubs worldwide

this must be one of the heaviest remix packages in a long time. a year after the release of tom tragos irisalbum we now have versions from no less than kink, linkwood and larry heard. all three hit the deep spots...err... tip!

newcomer italian label traxx underground calls on the service of kool vibe, a veteran record collector & clubber from paris who, after a well-received debut release on my love is underground, is back to offer four tracks produced with the steady hand of someone who knows his way around a house tune. as announced in the title of this ep record, mr. vibe continues to spread the vibe, this 90s house vibe made of tough drums, bumpin basslines, warm chords and chopped vocals. kool vibe has clearly been nurtured by all that was good about deep and garage house coming from new york and new jersey back in the 90s and he proves it again with this second release

limonada 05 is an amazing ep by mindreaders, aka fred.h and william wild. they deliver their first ep on limonada, after their much noticed remix from francisco allendes & aldo cadizs >ya tu sabes<. with >marimba<, the two french producers take us on a long hypnotic, deep and percusive journey which intoxicating texture perfectly blends their musical influences. its the perfect track for after parties on the beach when the sun is rising. as for remixes, a very funky one by our freak n chics friend djebali, a nice deep house mix from aldo cadiz. supported by : loco dice, jimpster, karotte, silicon soul, shonky, matthias tanzmann, davide squilace, djulz, arnaud le texier, richie hawtin, luciano, nic fanciulli, tim green, psycatron, xpress2, mirko loko, natalie coleman, yaya, alejandro vivanco, oxia, toni rios, franck roger, claude monnet, plain pits, roy brizman, dj linus, mirco violi, jerome pacman, po missive, miguel lobo, andré butano, dj maiki , sergio parrado, miguel lobo, psykoloco, jesus gonsev, miguel garji, scan mode, sami wentz

the majestys pleasure label returns after an extended break with their fourth issue of disco-centric edits and its clear the time out of the spotlight has left this mystery bunch of dusty fingered tweakers fully refreshed. whilst previous volumes have dipped toes in funk filled and philly string led waters, majestys pleasure vol 4 focuses fully on music from the post-disco /proto-house period of the 1980s and sounds very much like a beautiful swimmers dj set condensed into just 12 inches of vinyl. the concerted diggers out there will be consulting their sample notes for the source material on each of these (space palace has the most obvious hook) whilst those whove simply been enjoying output from the intermittent eros label will love both sides here

after the great success of jerk house connections velvet touch release, stalwart is quite proud to present you its 21st release from one influential member of the infamous broken beat uk combo bugzintheattic: orin walters aka afronaut. orin heard the slam poetry of suheir hammad, a speech about the wheel power not to give up into any extreme ideological, political and/or religious undemocratic system. he craftily joined his minimalist deep groove to emphasize it, giving birth to eye will not, a track that is sure to be noticed in any sets. on the remix treatment, bugzintheattic have been working on their classy broken beat treatment, whereas dj rork has been giving it an infectious hypnotic house touch with an heavy bass, while deep house man of the moment djeff kalukuta relift it for the more south african house music dance floors.
another quality and classy release from stalwart sure to take wmc 2012 by storm! already getting early support from phil asher, yass, ian friday, ralf gum, master kev, abicah soul, lars behrenroth ...

nice price deal !!! vinyl only! the next release on neovinyl recordings features the brand new tracks from carlo. after a successful beginning of this year with good ratio music and neovinyl recordings it is time to show what is going on in his mind with this >midwinters dream<. an artist who never knows what he actually is.

(ltd 500cps complete with deluxe packaging and 180g vinyl) two long years after their debut cult classic (illuminations / dont eat the apricots), latin drumming and modular synthesis.hungry ghost return.

pressing on 2 x 12 inch 180 gram heavy weight vinyl, including code for free mp3 download of the full album.
oxia is back! 8 years after his first album 24 heures, the french techno pioneer returns with the future classic tides of mind.

after a two-year break, detroit producer and wayward star-child jimmy edgar debuts on scubas hotflush recordings armed with an album full of futuristic sleaze. known for his unique take on jacking house and electro funk, he has recently been splitting his time between the us and berlin, exploring transcendental meditation and the boundaries of the non-physical. this offering is an extension of that journey, bringing eleven tracks of erotic robo-pop to the table. titled majenta, this lp is a departure from his past sound, marking a shift in his own ever-expanding consciousness, as well as another exciting chapter of his musical career. each track is an aural manifesto, giving well-deserved nods to his varied musical influences.

so, who is this mysterious afefe iku? after absolutely destroying the dancefloors all year long with his infamous bootleg of radioheads >everything in its right place<, which he smartly put out in extremely limited amounts of vinyl around the same time his mentor, osunlade, featured his cover of that very same song on bbes >exit music: songs with radio heads<. in all honesty afefe remains a mystery even to us. so, let us start by saying who afefe isnt. unfortunately, for those who thought he was osunlade, you are mistaken, but dont feel ashamed, because afefe creates at osunlades studio in santorini, which makes sense to pinpoint him as osunlade.

ppbr streetgang have a long lasting relationship with 2020vision, through the various record shops, dancefloors and after parties shared in leeds over the years. they have also remixed tracks from the last two crazy p albums for the label. as residents at we love at space ibiza theyve carved a niche as a classy dj double act as adept at backroom disco sets or terrace filling house tear ups, all delivered with a smattering of funk and good times. their debut 2020 ep follows up their >downstroke< release for hot creations, a huge throbbing low slung houser indebted to mike dunns classic >god made me phunky<. this ep continues the vibe of this last release, all tracks drip with funk in a sleazy house flavour with a definite disco edge. much like the pbr dj sound they have now found a trademark production style that utilises their love of a body shaking bassline, crisp beats, quirky samples and a unifying groove.

the german band the audience was founded in 2003 in nürnberg and released their first album >celluloid< on the cult independent-label hazelwood in 2007. soon after the five-piece was signed by one of the biggest german booking agencies fkp-scorpio, which sent them on tour throughout europe where they proofed to be one of germanys most incredible and exciting live acts. their current album >hearts< was recorded in a big music hall over the period of one year. the aim was to catch both energy and emotions of an authentic live-on-stage situation. the recordings document the audiences most intense, dynamic and sophisticated moments, without losing their very own feeling for catchy melodies.

after the masterfully trippy rise before zod from rebels boss damian lazarus and james what comes one third of a british institution to rebellion, aidan lavelle. his first assault on dance music since u.n.k.l.e, the solo tinnitus ep is an infectious affair comprising of three eclecticm, sensory dancefloor bombs

after a rip-roaring tour of the us with his live band at the end of 2011, a healthy wedge of new remixes under his belt for the likes of david lynch, the dø, the drums and m83, copenhagens anders trentemøller remains in the spotlight. last year also saw the release of reworked / remixed, a must-have double cd release featuring some of the inspired producer‘s favourite remixes, and his pick from remixes of his music by other artists

for a short period in 1981 and with brand-new equipment such as roland 808, sh 101, gr 500, we made some 8-track just for fun jam tapes. mainly just to experiment for our own pleasure. from those sessions, only white horse made it to a final treatment. the rest of the material was left behind, as our record company at the time found it too different. after white horse being a track indeed defining our sound, we thought it would be interesting to dig out left-overs to fulfill a documentation of that period - crucial for us at the time. we were still innocent newcomers, without actually knowing to be creating a new sound! recently, that left-over material was transferred from analogue to digital and, to stay as true as possible to original intentions, we only added vocals, bass and drumbeats ahead of a final mix. we hope that you will enjoy listening to it. good vibes from laid back copenhagen 2012.

vinyl only! amazing piece of music! limited 1st release on new label get slow, signed by deep mariano incl. remixes from franco cinelli & londonground. new label designed by a small family including artists like deep mariano, franco cinelli, phonogenic, jay west, londonground, toygun, adi dumitra, yoshitaca aiming to release deep, sexy, slow jams suitable for any dancefloor. headlining most of the big names and events from south america to japan, deep mariano is no stranger for any clubberhead, beeing showcased on john digweeds transitions, and nominated as >breaktrough dj 2008< by dj magazine where hernan cataneo voted him. the original track >secret passage< is a deep number filled with groovy beats, moving basslines and haunting synths.after his massive remix on cassius >the sound of violence<, also with alot of releases on harry klein, love letters from oslo, viva, esperanza, franco cinelli delivers an excellent dancefloor summer bomb!!! the argentinian crew is completed by londonground with a more stripped down remix perfect for your warmup set!! you better be ready!!!

welcome return for this very sought-after rare electro 12 inch from tiny harlem label express records. big with the cosmic crowd as well as on the early hiphop scene, this is an extremely cool low-slung synth-heavy electro groover with a hypnotically smooth lead vocal, given a sharp percussive edge by the rattling congas and ticky-time chorus. written at a time in rap music history when the introduction of synthesizer technology created a wild flurry of creativity, this futuristic track by barry michael cooper (who went on to write the screenplays for movies new jack city and above the rim) was teletrons only ever release. film s gain was sadly musics loss as this was, and still is, a boundary-pushing, floor-filling monster. dont sleep!

causing absolute carnage throughout miami 2012, bullets ep vol. 2 features 2 tracks guaranteed to drive any dance floor from peak hour to after hour!

including junk project - control 99 / cm - dream universe / deep zone - its gonna be alrigh

back on a highly limited, black-vinyl. the first release on baum after the re-launch is, by leftover from finland who is one of resoes favourite dub techno producers. remix by resoe

the first release of fottute registrazioni (marcello napoletanos label) is based on freedom, especially after release of a member of i.f.m. fran mela. after being locked up for some law bullshit, fran came out with an anger and strength, so as to be transmitted to another i.f.m. member, marcello napoletano, this blend of anger and strength derived from it this ep mini-album. in this record you can feel the anger and the power , the resistance, the freeform lifestyle and analog machines...desire for freedom, desire to fight and resist, desire for free expression, desire to rush the anger and the energy stored.

with surprise cut on center ... after the success of the first release, tanstaafl returns for their second wax adventure, this time with the musical renegade dj october at the helm. october has entered a new phase of production for the tanstaafl series and has focused himself firmly on a reduced, stripped and effective formula for the floor. his productions are heavy, smoked out narcoleptic dub infused journeys, and his latest 12 offers more or less of the same opaque vibe but with his sights firmly set on the floor, with one foot in the past and the other in the future - drawing from his usual detroit, nyc and chicago influences. so we kick off 2012 with a future classic, singularity jump, which douses you in synthesized saxophone hooks, chopped vocal samples and a meaty juno hip-house inspired bass-line.planet of minds is more of a inner space affair very much inspired by acid and dub. successfully combining the two, october injects more of an airy feel into the mix and delivers a moody cosmic acid jam that will not fail your dancing feet or tripped-out mind. definitely one for the later hours.this is going to be an anthem, hands down, so get it before its gone for good.

from one possible interpretation to the next: a view from a car. click. nighttime, being on the move. click. before or after the accident? click. – mix mup offers us a plot on the way from a to b, which could be a piece of a secret, perhaps even a great story. in order to decide on this, we must lose ourselves first. lose ourselves in disorder and early sorrow.